bated breath

Sometimes you wait with bated breath, will this be the day my life changes?  Sometimes it hinges on one phone call and one answer:  yes. or no.   Well today it was a maybe, and that is probably worse than a no because it just means more waiting.  Waiting meaning frustration, aggravation, and more waiting..


It is days like this where I wonder what the tipping point is to just walk away.  Stop pursuing, wanting, envying what's on the other and just be content with what is in front of you.  I mean, millions in this country and certainly around the world would trade places in one second to have a well paying stable job with benefits.  But it is the unique few that would sacrifice this job even if it paid a million dollar salary, for the freedom of being an entrepreneur.   

en·tre·pre·neur

 noun \ˌäⁿn-trə-p(r)ə-ˈnər, -ˈn(y)u̇r\

: a person who starts a business and is willing to risk loss in order to make money

According to Miriam-Webster, this word had its first known use in 1852.  This word I have come to despise as it has become the bane of my marital existence, the source of all things evil and great, and the single word that just may be the tipping point of my relationship as well as my future.